Never have I ever been this truly excited, scared and listless all at the same time.

I'm still in in this phase wherein I always double check if this is real or just a blurry dream. Being so hopeless and just plain, no shame dramatic towards everything... it's now all set. It's really happening. I'm meeting the boys again. In my home country. With the people who are ever so patient with my emotional fallouts.

I'm facing him again.


BANGS HEAD ON DESK.

MUST CALM DOWN.

MUST NOT OVERTHINK.

MUST CALM DOWN.

CALM DOWN.