The June Narrative: 1 Year, 6 Months
Monday, June 15, 2015
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June 15 2015
10:20PM
The person you've had the most romantic feelings for
I remember it so clearly, I cried the moment I have realized that
you mean so much more to me, than what I have expected you to be. It's funny how
instances like these works. I swear to the heavens up above, I have tried each,
and every method to get myself away from you, from it, from everything. But no
matter how hard I try, as funny as it could seem, I always find myself running
back into this rabbit hole of feelings I have for you.
People could consider me mad, for thinking this way. And I don't
blame them for that. For I consider myself crazy, since this whole confusing,
and frustrating whirlwind of events started. I just really don't understand it
myself. I have been exposed to this culture since forever, and I have never
felt so attached to someone more than this.
And it's not because he's got that unbelievable face. Or something
to do with his height. Or whatever shallow reason you could think of. It’s
not that. It’s more than that.
With that thought of him I feel so safe. Warm and cozy. It was as
if I am shielded from everything that gives me anxiety. He was that huge factor
in my life when it comes to facing anyone, anything, anywhere.
It could be the romanticist in me, or that my sanity screw could
be a little lose. But that’s how it is. A little vague, somewhat crazy, and so
goddamn precious.
I could go on, write like a 2,000 page letter explaining whatever
it is that I see in him. But that is still not enough as to what I really want
to express. For no words will be enough to actually explain everything there is
to me towards someone like him.
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