I’m proud of this one. For ever since the time that I have had deleted and completely stopped using my Instagram and Facebook apps, I feel a big weight off of shoulders. I guess the energy, as well as the side effects of these apps let me down sometimes. Not that I have a big problem of their existence. But sometimes, a little negative thing manifesting from said platforms make me feel things, such as insecurity and worry. To a point where I find myself producing content that boosts my selfish ego. And recently, I felt that I need to get away from that.

It really helped walking away. I’m not gonna lie. Though sometimes there is that “I might get left out” factor, but being armed with a smart phone at this day and age, nothing is really impossible.

I’m true blue OVER THINKER. Overthinking every little thing there is that exists is one of my talents. And that makes everything hard for me, especially mixing overthinking with panic attacks. Good luck to me, am I right?

Time and time again though, I always prove to my overthinking self that things don’t really turn out that bad. But at the same time, the same jitters enter my system and just go on overthinking system override.

Recently I’ve been feeding myself with positive notes. May it be physical, digital or even mental notes to self. And that helps. A LOT.

During my bum days, I tend to sleep the day away. And at times, ever since I got this job of mine. I found myself spending my weekends doing something unproductive, and that really irks me. I have spend 5 working days of my life doing productive stuff, each and every day. Then the next thing I know that momentum stops when the weekend comes. I know that I need a break, but I feel that being busy is more of the thing I need, just to not break the momentum.

I do to-do lists just to keep in track, and tell myself that I am doing something. I schedule things in advance just to give myself the motivation to actually accomplish it. So hopefully that goes well for future wants-to-be-busy Laline.

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I guess there is more to what I plan to stop, but I’ll go into those things after I fix the first ones I listed. There is so much happening on my plate right now, and I don’t want to spill anything.