As I ponder about the things that I should say in this entry, I found myself frustratingly blank and confused. Am I really doing this? Am I really going to type down these thoughts inside my head? Am I really, seriously okay with this? 

It's been more than 50 weeks since he came into my life. Thinking that he is yet again another boy who will just pass me by, I(emphasis on "I") clearly am not informed of the consequences that follow.

It's not like I was falling, it felt more like as if I was climbing down slowly. Slowly going down with doubts, fear, occasional emotional breakdowns, breathlessness, and endless amount of bliss. 

It may be too cliche to say that he felt so different. But he is... different. 

You could say that I'm being delusional. You could say that I am just desperate for something I cannot have. Or I'm just thinking of things, but please... just this once, let me be.

For he who brought not only happiness in my life, numerous tearful, and untimely emotional breakouts, strength to hold on to in times of stress. He also gave way for me to meet people who I could really turn to.

The person who made me question the universe. A solid record of such perfect timing.

The one who changed everything with just one look. So close yet so far. A dangerous thing, yet so lovely. which forever be kept inside my head and my heart.

And as he celebrates his special day, with the people who makes him smile, a phone call with his mom for an hour or two. You deserve all the good things in the world. You deserve all the love. Happy Birthday, you.

You can't buy happiness, but you can treat yourself in a satisfying dinner at Sambo Kojin and that's kind of a same thing.

Whilst others were busy either hating or loving the fact that H&M finally opens its flagship store here in the PH, We chose to stuff ourselves with divine grilled meat goodness. Celebrating the delectable delight of Japanese and Korean cuisines with good company.

I should be honest, I only ate a slice of chocolate cake to prepare for this night(so unhealthy, I know). I seldom go to buffets, so this a pretty huge deal. You can lecture me all you want, but I've never tried eating at Sambo Kojin before(so please, let me be.). 

I won't lie, we went off with a quiet start. We were all hungry as hell. And I must say, that morning fasting was so worth it. It went down to either I'm just REALLY THAT HUNGRY, or that grilled pork and meat I ate was just flabbergast-ingly satisfying.

Now that I got that off my chest... plus multiple craving frustration moments later, let me now get to my point for this post. 

I can't help but smile recalling that Friday night. We were all together again, I never thought it was possible in the soonest possible time. But it happened.

Charlie Brown once said, "Friendship picks you up, when the world let's you down." Life had been somehow difficult for most of us. Some had it tougher than the others. We all had our own battles, and they all matter. It warms my heart to be surrounded with brave, and gorgeous people like you girls. 

The smiles on our faces doesn't mean our lives are perfect. It means that we appreciate what we have and what we have been blessed with. Despite everything... we stood up, and WE CHOSE TO BE HAPPY. (Yeahp, I definitely am channeling the good ol' Charlie Brown.) 

To our dearest awesome person who made this all possible... NIU just opened. *wink wink* 

October 3, 2014 - Draft Archive

Do you ever just look at a person, and that one person has the ability to take your breath away? 

You can say that I may be exaggerating, or just being downright delusional but that is what I felt when I opened that big A4 sized envelope containing the 10Asia +Star Magazine with Bangtan on the cover. 

I wrote a draft of this entry on the 3rd of October wherein I stayed Ate Anne's place for the long weekend to celebrate my birthday(which will be on the 7th, which is just hours away). I swear, whilst writing this, I cannot contain myself. Screaming, smelling and rolling around is not even enough for me to express the amount of feels that surrounded my Laline heart. I felt the need to sit down, think, reflect and write.

The quality of the magazine is just A+ on my book. It has a matte quality cover paper that just makes the paper enthusiast in me scream. It has that fancy magazine vibe, it could even pass as a photobook. And don't get me started about the smell(*sniffs the magazine*)! I am a sucker for that freshly opened magazine smell. I sniffed the hell out of this magazine, it's not even funny.

And then we are back to the reason why I even started on this post... Bangtan(*whispers* SEOKJIN). I swear this group takes the best group photos, may it from just their phones, to formal shoots... they just make everything look good and precious. I have no words.

This has got to be one of my favorite magazine features they've done by far. From the shoot to their clothes, everything just screams perfection(emphasis on PERFECTION)! And I don't know if you could tell, but I am obviously into this one particular person from the group, *blushes* But let's talk about him some other time. For now... let's enjoy all the eye candy.

I would like to lovingly thank Ate Anne for this awesome gift. I swear I can't get enough of it(judging from the amount of times I sniffed bleep the out of this bad boy). It may not seem like it, but I'm seriously above the clouds. Thank you!