A saying goes, "Some days, you just have to create your own sunshine.".

As I write this entry, I swore to myself that in some way I'm getting a hang of things, I'm trying to get through such an emotional slump. Yet, I feel so drained. So out of my element.

Words are powerful. They can either make of break a person. In my journey to emotional stability, if you could call it that,

I find it a must for me to surround myself with people and things that makes me at ease. I clean a lot to get my mind off of things. I listen to music a lot to end the overthinking. I kiss my little puppy on his forehead all the time to assure myself that I have this little friend I could hold on to in times of vulnerability. I try so hard to be free from those elements that make me hate myself the most.

But alas, words are so sharp. Sometimes, you just don't see them coming right at you. Especially from the people you hold dear to your heart.

It's hard. I must admit. I had a hard time drinking tea, or even eating a half four cheese pizza. I found myself all choked up, looking for my little Loki, and in tears. Never have I ever felt so stupid, worthless, and of no use in my life.

It could be because of my period. Or the lack of sleep due to a dashing korean actor. But at the end of rhe day, it all boils down to one thing... I was hurt.

I've had my fair shares of hard emotional battles the past year, and I'm healing. Yet this one blow had me knocked out.

To be honest, I don't have any counter attack, nor a revenge plan to prove this person wrong. I'm still currently in this state of reflection, and isolation. I honestly want to get out from it, damn it! I don't deserve this kind of thoughts to be inside my head. I don't want it to stay in there haunting me.

I know that for now... no matter how much it hurts, I know that I will look back and tell myself... see you got through it. A person should never let anyone every dull one's sparkle. As I face another tomorrow, I wish myself all the best. With a positive mind, positive vibes and hopefully a positive life again.