May 28, 2015

[OBLIGATORY DESK SHOT!]

One thing is definitely for sure, it’s been a long while.

Things have happened along the way, whilst I kind-of-in-a-sense struggled. Let’s not look back to those things, and flash forward to the now-employed Laline. [whoop, whoop!]

I found myself tapping away my keyboard once more, for I felt like I needed it (?)[Sidenote, I broke my keyboard a week ago. But all is well for it is now a new one. Whoop!]

Going back: Here I am, starting another new chapter in life. It’s scary I must admit. I’m in a new environment. I’m handling something unfamiliar, and what I believe is something big.

I had this chat with a friend yesterday regarding our situation, where the game has now changed. It’s not a time for us to be the ones to be taken care of. We must be the ones to take care of ourselves. We’ve been spoonfed so much in the past, and this new venture is something we should get used to. And not only that, we should survive it as well. [So… goodluck with that Laline, goodluck!]

I’ve going out and about regarding this matter. Am I really ready? Am I prepared to face my inner demons? Is my emotional capacity on things enough to even face this huge barrier? Will I be able to break those barriers, to spread my wings and fly?

I’m dead beat scared for sure. I really am.

But like what this one special person once said before, which by the way I also got to reflect on before a job interview:

And I’m trying. I’m definitely trying.

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To ease whatever jitters I have amidst the huge pressure given upon me, I found myself doing little things.

One being the fact that I love jotting positive quotes in my daily journal. I find it relieving I guess, whenever I’m in a situation, I could just open up my Agenda and find a little note of encouragement to move on.

I’ve been also keeping track of things I need to be done, may it be at home or in my job. I have this huge whiteboard by my door, just to remind me that I have responsibilities at home, not only in my day job. As for my anti-procrastination ways for my job, I formulated this daily task Excel file. Which I love. SO MUCH. It makes me procrastinate less, as well as keep track of what needs to be finished. It just sets my priorities straight. And I love that.

I keep this journal of things I am very thankful for. Which serves a daily reminder that I have so much to be thankful for, rather than thinking negatively about my situation.

Lastly, Casey Neistat’s daily Vlogs which helped me a lot. In terms of motivation and life in general.

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I have a lot in store for the month of June for this blog. I have formulated a little something for me to be sane amidst my new venture in the world as an employed citizen.

Xoxo

Laline.